I’v been slacking.
I know. I’ve been getting carried away
with other things and projects that I lose track of this.
It almost makes me feel like I forgot to take a pill. My daily dose
of blogging. I’ve noticed that I cling to the few things that make me happy or
give me a sense of comfort since everything that has happened. I kind of feel lost and my days thrown off
when I don’t do what’s been keeping me going in the first place. It reminds me of when I got slightly addicted
to working out a couple summers ago. For the first time, I was working out on a very regular basis, watching what
I was eating but still enjoying the foods that I loved. I lost nearly 15 lbs that summer. I felt great, people were
It was amazing, but I noticed that if I got carried away in my days or time spent hanging out with friends that I’d begin
to get worried and fidget. For the first time in my life, I understood why people get addicted to working
out. Not only does it feel rewarding to lose the weight, but the endorphins are amazing!
That’s how I feel about blogging.
I get fidgety and concerned if I don’t post one every day to every other day. Blogging helps me
stay connected to everyone. It’s also rewarding in that I feel like I’m serving a purpose.
I realize how new I am into this grieving world I’ve entered. But I have loved
the couple of other mother’s who have sought me out for help. In such a short amount of
time I’ve already learned so much. It makes me happy to pass on what I have learned. It’s half
the reason why I created this. Because I knew somewhere, there was another grieving mother
like myself, feeling completely lost and alone in her feelings. It is an instant connection
with that person who you discovered has suffered a similar, terrible loss. You almost
already feel like you know them. You want to hear their story so you can get a better
understanding of what you are potentially up against.
If my experience has helped just one person, whether it be to appreciate
their children more or to help through their own grieving process, then I’ve done my job
and this blog has served it’s purpose.
Currently, I’ve still been trying to perfect the art of couponing. I’ve also
been working on creating a story/photo book of Brecken’s life from pregnancy, to birth, and death.
It’s going to take a long time to complete as I have so many complex ideas, but hopefully
one day I’ll be able to share the link on here for all to see.